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Friday, August 6, 2010

The Rise of Ardor

Have you ever wanted to be perfect? Have you ever wanted to be immune to pain? Have you ever wanted to stop caring? 

Let's face the facts, humans aren't perfect and we never will be. We live in an imperfect world and I think that's awesome. How boring would life be without obstacles? Imagine living eternally without any challenges to occupy you. It's the ultimate curse.

Immortality is boring. I can't stand the thought of living for eternity. Having a limited life enables us to enjoy it. Of course, it also means that we could die at any moment. But, that's the beauty of it. We are all lucky to be alive. Lucky to have the luxury to sit in front of a computer and read blogs. Lucky to live. Lucky to think. Lucky to feel.

I think it's amazing how everything has its pros and cons. Try to think of an action that doesn't have both a negative and a positive consequence. Everything has them. That includes living, thinking, and feeling. Life gives us the opportunity to do anything but it also means that we will one day die. Thinking allows us to learn and discover new things but it also complicates things. Have you ever wanted to just shut your mind off for a while? Feeling allows us to experience the world. We can feel comfort but also pain. We can feel love but also hate. I think that's amazing. I think feeling nothing but pain is better than not feeling anything at all. I think making wrong decisions is better than making no decision at all.

Caring. For the longest time, I thought I would be better off if I didn't care about the world. What would I lose? I know what I believe. I know what I have. Why should I need someone else's opinion on it? And then I realized something. I'm bored. I'm bored because I don't care about other's opinions. Because I don't care about what's going on in the world. Because I don't need to open myself up to others to be successful. 

During college orientation, they told us that students who only focused on schoolwork did poorly. They told us to get out and be active in the school. To join clubs, to make friends, to try new things. At first, I thought it was a load of horse shit, but now I think I understand them. That's what I've been doing wrong. I've been focused on myself for too long. I need to start caring. It doesn't matter if I agree or disagree with people. All that matters is that I interacted with them. That I cared about them. So that's what I'm going to start doing.

We're supposed to experience life. We're supposed to take chances. We're supposed to feel the good and the bad. We're supposed to care. Otherwise, what's the point?

9 comments:

  1. Wow, Rafi, great piece! I don't see any grammar mistakes, besides...AH! I'm just kidding!

    Anyway, it's awesome to hear that you stopped not caring and started caring about the decisions you make.

    I think those people at orientation had definitely the right mindset that you should adopt.

    So, start caring and go for the world! Interact with people and step out of your comfort zone, because that's the way you should live. Live life to the fullest and without knowing what's going to happen next all the time.

    Anyways, thanks for sharing your thoughts! :P

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  2. wow vatche, thanks for saying exactly what i said and telling me to do exactly what i said id do. the repetition of your words is deeply appreciated.

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  3. Your mind is definitely one of the things I love most about you. I mean, holy hell. Did you read what you just wrote? That was amazing, Rafi.

    I always knew you were smart, but this right here proves that you are not only smart, but wise. A smart person knows a lot of facts and information about the world, but a wise person actually applies the stuff that they know in order to survive in the world. And you're doing just that. You've gained enlightenment. You're learning from your mistakes. That makes you a wise person.

    I personally think that caring is all we have in this world. It's like you said, what would be the point of everything if we didn't care?

    You pointed out that everything has a pro and con to it. Well in this piece, you pointed out how indifference has a con to it too. For so long, I think you only chose to see the pro to it. But now you realized its con.

    I'm feeling really proud of you right now. Not because you've decided to adopt a different mindset when it comes to caring--because even if you hadn't, I would still continue to admire you. I've admired you from day one... or maybe day two. But anyways, I'm proud of you because you're you. And know that whoever you choose to be or whatever you choose to do, I will back you up 100% of the way.

    Unless you decided to be a serial killer or something. Then I kinda can't be supportive of that. Sorry. :P

    Oh, and P.S. I love how you troll Vatche, even on your own blog.

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  4. You have an interesting point of view. Thanks for sharing it.

    All the best, Boonsong

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  5. Well Rafi, Vachte sent me here and I have come along to get a different perspective on life.

    You also see the merit of this yourself - or at least your narrator sees the merit - in this most erudite piece of writing. Thank you.

    I'm pleased to meet you, Rafi. As they say, any friend of Vachte is...

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  6. No problem, Boonsong.

    Nice to meet you too, Elisabeth. I'm glad you guys enjoyed this piece.

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  7. Came by on Vachte's recommendation. I've enjoyed your posts so far. In fact, I have an award waiting for you on my blog, if you have time to stop by.

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  8. Caring makes a difference, getting involved with others is part of the "student of life" mindset, whether you're in college or not. :)

    I'm here via Vatche, and glad I stopped by. Cheers & waffles!!

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  9. I've been enjoying your humor on Vatche's blog for a while now and it's great to get a chance to know you a little better. There's a lot of wisdom in this post, btw. Choosing to care-about anything-invites learning, new perspectives, conflict, openness, and a little bit of loss when it comes to your personal, private self. This should be interesting....

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